Today is the 14th of march and school is really starting next week after 9 long weeks of holiday.I'll be starting my 2nd year next week. Few days ago just realized that many friends of mine manage to apply into Ngee Ann Poly.Hence,it'll be great indeed to see them again there!!!
Right now,I am still enjoying my holiday..but in malaysia,kuching ;my mummy hometown.In fact, i dun really intend to come back this holiday. But my uncle here was seriously ill thus i went back here with my mum. My mum went back only after one night. But i was left here alone with my relative coz my mum have to work.Ya..but i'll be back on wednesday.
Few more days to school reopen.Rather saddening but at least i enjoy 9 weeks of holiday le..so can start preparing myself for the hell days to start again now.
This time i came back, I saw my uncle in the hospital. My heart was really pain when i see him. He was with tubes..expressionless.. I cannot imagine he was the uncle who used to bring me out for food..or the someone who is always very strict- looking to me.
Life is really fragile..really.All those memories with him are all gone..but that will always stay in my mind forever.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Pondering Thoughts..
我在想。。一直在想。。。
为什么人类会有七情六欲呢？
如果少了七情六欲，那人类甚至与世间上就少了很多很多的烦恼，那人类也不需要这么困惑了。
或许这样能使自己过得开心一点。
可能少了七情六欲，人类会变得更加的无情。
但是试想想无情胜有情。为什么拥有了喜怒哀乐会是一件这么痛苦的事呢？
人们总是嬉皮笑脸，但是自己却在心底隔了一层玻璃片似的，任何人都无法渗透进去。看似坚强却一点都看不出她的脆弱。
真真正正脆弱的玻璃片其实只要轻轻的一敲就会不经撞击力而破碎了。
可惜和庆幸都在于没人知道。没人体会到那心底哀的滋味。
始终没有。。。
没有喜怒哀乐不是很好吗？我宁愿让自己成为一个没有感情的人类。因为至少无情对我来说是我给自己心灵上最后的一份安慰。
为什么人类会有七情六欲呢？
如果少了七情六欲，那人类甚至与世间上就少了很多很多的烦恼，那人类也不需要这么困惑了。
或许这样能使自己过得开心一点。
可能少了七情六欲，人类会变得更加的无情。
但是试想想无情胜有情。为什么拥有了喜怒哀乐会是一件这么痛苦的事呢？
人们总是嬉皮笑脸，但是自己却在心底隔了一层玻璃片似的，任何人都无法渗透进去。看似坚强却一点都看不出她的脆弱。
真真正正脆弱的玻璃片其实只要轻轻的一敲就会不经撞击力而破碎了。
可惜和庆幸都在于没人知道。没人体会到那心底哀的滋味。
始终没有。。。
没有喜怒哀乐不是很好吗？我宁愿让自己成为一个没有感情的人类。因为至少无情对我来说是我给自己心灵上最后的一份安慰。
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
My Decision..
It's rather late now..but there's jus a feeling of blogging.
Finally,managed to survive through the last 2week when we hav to complete about 3 diiferent big big projects.Just like our class的一贯作风，we will only 不见棺材不掉泪。Last min work.Ya..including me:)So for the past 2week..i've been like staying up jus to complete the assignment.It's NOT easy alrighty people.
So right now..it's not holiday..but it's still consider a small break for me..coz we dun hav to rush out homework just like hell.Like the lecturers in the course always like to do..they like to put all the deadline in clashes..and make us rush the work together for them like hell.
But anw..that's over for the time being.I'm more troubled now is bcoz of the signing up of teaching bond.Should i sign or shld i not???The deadline is tomorrow!!!
I really dun mind the job of being a teacher as that was indeed my ambition when i was young.But right now..my ambition was being a chinese news anchor instead.If i join the teaching bond,that means in another words tt i have to give up my dream completely and set a new goal.That was defintely the last thing that i would wanna do.But living in this world,we really have to face up to reality.Media track ..i m losing hope.Everyone was encouraging me to go for the teaching bond.BUT..BUT..BUT..haizzz..i m lost..really..thinking and thinking for the whole day.One decision would really change my life completely.
Nonetheless,i've sign up for the application alr...coz my mum was like telling me it's a better way and afterall it's a more secure life..coz u r a civil servant.Hai..but i dunno my decision.I m afraid that i might regret or give up in the midst.10yrs frm now..it's rather long or short,but it gonna change my life...my future..HOW???
Finally,managed to survive through the last 2week when we hav to complete about 3 diiferent big big projects.Just like our class的一贯作风，we will only 不见棺材不掉泪。Last min work.Ya..including me:)So for the past 2week..i've been like staying up jus to complete the assignment.It's NOT easy alrighty people.
So right now..it's not holiday..but it's still consider a small break for me..coz we dun hav to rush out homework just like hell.Like the lecturers in the course always like to do..they like to put all the deadline in clashes..and make us rush the work together for them like hell.
But anw..that's over for the time being.I'm more troubled now is bcoz of the signing up of teaching bond.Should i sign or shld i not???The deadline is tomorrow!!!
I really dun mind the job of being a teacher as that was indeed my ambition when i was young.But right now..my ambition was being a chinese news anchor instead.If i join the teaching bond,that means in another words tt i have to give up my dream completely and set a new goal.That was defintely the last thing that i would wanna do.But living in this world,we really have to face up to reality.Media track ..i m losing hope.Everyone was encouraging me to go for the teaching bond.BUT..BUT..BUT..haizzz..i m lost..really..thinking and thinking for the whole day.One decision would really change my life completely.
Nonetheless,i've sign up for the application alr...coz my mum was like telling me it's a better way and afterall it's a more secure life..coz u r a civil servant.Hai..but i dunno my decision.I m afraid that i might regret or give up in the midst.10yrs frm now..it's rather long or short,but it gonna change my life...my future..HOW???
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Happy New Year
Woo..today 31 dec 2008.Omg..really wonder how i survive till this day..haha:)
But anyway..today was really a eventful day..coz i've really gone through alot this year.
Thinking back..really lots of thing happened..some turn out well some don't.But anyway..所谓“不经一事、不长一智”。今年学到了很多，经历的也多。今年似乎与往年不同。毕了业，许多事情从零开始。整个生活环境，步调都变了。认识了许多新朋友，有了不同的见解。It seem like a new life.But me is still me..haha:)
For New year resolution,i hope that this time i can really score well for my sem. Last sem did not do very well so this sem mus 补回。 Getting into this course is really my dream..having to achieve it ,i really dun wan to lost the chance.So pls god ...blessed me:)Nonetheless,i also hope that all my friends ,family and the two lovely cats at home will stay healthy always coz i am really fearful of hearing bad news abt my families.Hope for more family gathering at my hse as well:)haha..
2009.. just a few more hrs away.感觉上好神圣哦。。对吗对吗。。哈哈 :)and I finally persuaded my mum to let me go marina..haha. So for 2008 and in its last second..i'll be at marina..saying gdbye to 我光辉的2008..haha.
But anyway..today was really a eventful day..coz i've really gone through alot this year.
Thinking back..really lots of thing happened..some turn out well some don't.But anyway..所谓“不经一事、不长一智”。今年学到了很多，经历的也多。今年似乎与往年不同。毕了业，许多事情从零开始。整个生活环境，步调都变了。认识了许多新朋友，有了不同的见解。It seem like a new life.But me is still me..haha:)
For New year resolution,i hope that this time i can really score well for my sem. Last sem did not do very well so this sem mus 补回。 Getting into this course is really my dream..having to achieve it ,i really dun wan to lost the chance.So pls god ...blessed me:)Nonetheless,i also hope that all my friends ,family and the two lovely cats at home will stay healthy always coz i am really fearful of hearing bad news abt my families.Hope for more family gathering at my hse as well:)haha..
2009.. just a few more hrs away.感觉上好神圣哦。。对吗对吗。。哈哈 :)and I finally persuaded my mum to let me go marina..haha. So for 2008 and in its last second..i'll be at marina..saying gdbye to 我光辉的2008..haha.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
好烦。。
Today had just past tues.Earlier on went out with pearlyn yuan shan eugene and other friend.Quite of happy just now..but right now..feel so damn down.Two things right now in my mind.The service learning trip and my relationship with joe.
我好烦啊。。真的好烦。。 好累啊!!!这一切的一切什么时候才会有个结局呢？
我只想简简单单的帮助人。那有何困难呢？这一切的一切把我搞得好烦啊！！！为什么这么简单的事情偏偏要搞得乱七八糟呢？
一波未平一波又起。这边的烦事还没处理完。。另一堆又在后头等着了。。
天啊。。怎么你老是给我没完没了的事呢？我真的很累了。
简简单单的一颗心，你却要把它搞得这么狼狈。那又何苦呢。。。
我好烦啊。。真的好烦。。 好累啊!!!这一切的一切什么时候才会有个结局呢？
我只想简简单单的帮助人。那有何困难呢？这一切的一切把我搞得好烦啊！！！为什么这么简单的事情偏偏要搞得乱七八糟呢？
一波未平一波又起。这边的烦事还没处理完。。另一堆又在后头等着了。。
天啊。。怎么你老是给我没完没了的事呢？我真的很累了。
简简单单的一颗心，你却要把它搞得这么狼狈。那又何苦呢。。。
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Finally so decision made...
Today was the lst post in my blog.Went to malaysia last week and enjoy lots of fun.
Very enjoyable but now back in singapore so have to be back in reality.
Attend the considered lst thailand trip today.Finally ..so they come to a decision.The thailand trip that had been plan for more than half a year had been cancel for that stupid reason and that mr tang all rounded back-up plan.
So it had been change to Bintan instead now.Feel like abit sad..i can also see from chris expression that he feel very wasted coz after all thailand was his more coordinated plan.
Abit sorry to him..coz he was helping us without earning any benefits and he had been working hand in hand with me all along.Now it had been cancel,somehow feel like the bintan trip is just a "take over thingy"..taking over the suppose plan.Sometime just feel like Mr tang only knows how to use his mouth and talk..Even getting the sponsership for Northlight sch was also chris who suppose to take care everything like tt.He knows how to use his mouth to tell everyone to change the plan..why not help out chris instead to get more sponsership.It's like throw everything to chris to do .But chris cant say anything ..coz he have to help out.Feel very apologetic to him..really..so sorry that i didnt speak up much just now during the meeting.It's not that i do not wish to..but just tt i alr alr say so so much that i m too tired.Just from the second when mr tang stepped in..he had already brain-wash the rest of their brain of how better ..how safe..how advantage..how fun will the bintan trip is as compared to the thailand trip.
So there is really not much that i could do already when he seem to had sweet-talk everyone in supporting for the bintan trip..anyway..just so sorry..i cant help much..
So finally..the last decision..BINTAN..
There shld not be major change now alr..i have also given up la..Frankly speaking,bintan trip is definitly alot easier to plan than the thailand trip..but but but..hai
Right now..think what i can do now is to help chris with his itinery and planning as much as i can.
Jia You ba..haha
Very enjoyable but now back in singapore so have to be back in reality.
Attend the considered lst thailand trip today.Finally ..so they come to a decision.The thailand trip that had been plan for more than half a year had been cancel for that stupid reason and that mr tang all rounded back-up plan.
So it had been change to Bintan instead now.Feel like abit sad..i can also see from chris expression that he feel very wasted coz after all thailand was his more coordinated plan.
Abit sorry to him..coz he was helping us without earning any benefits and he had been working hand in hand with me all along.Now it had been cancel,somehow feel like the bintan trip is just a "take over thingy"..taking over the suppose plan.Sometime just feel like Mr tang only knows how to use his mouth and talk..Even getting the sponsership for Northlight sch was also chris who suppose to take care everything like tt.He knows how to use his mouth to tell everyone to change the plan..why not help out chris instead to get more sponsership.It's like throw everything to chris to do .But chris cant say anything ..coz he have to help out.Feel very apologetic to him..really..so sorry that i didnt speak up much just now during the meeting.It's not that i do not wish to..but just tt i alr alr say so so much that i m too tired.Just from the second when mr tang stepped in..he had already brain-wash the rest of their brain of how better ..how safe..how advantage..how fun will the bintan trip is as compared to the thailand trip.
So there is really not much that i could do already when he seem to had sweet-talk everyone in supporting for the bintan trip..anyway..just so sorry..i cant help much..
So finally..the last decision..BINTAN..
There shld not be major change now alr..i have also given up la..Frankly speaking,bintan trip is definitly alot easier to plan than the thailand trip..but but but..hai
Right now..think what i can do now is to help chris with his itinery and planning as much as i can.
Jia You ba..haha
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